Big Rock Candy Mountain:
Five things that never happened to Andrew Wells.


Thanks and blame to Te for inspiring this story. Many thanks to jacquez h. valentine for a beta above and beyond the call of duty. And a million thanks to those who read this in the draft stages: you know who you are, and your enthusiasm was a lifesaver.


Two:

"Do summers get any more boring than this?" Xander asks nobody in particular. He's tossing a stake up in the air and catching it.

"Yes," Willow and Mr. Giles say together.

"Remember that summer you broke your leg when you went skateboarding down the stairs on the last day of school and your mom didn't let you outside until the day before school started again and we had to go run through every stream and then you got sunburn?" Willow asks him. "That summer was way worse than this one."

Xander has a funny look on his face. "Repressed memories... flooding back..." He sits heavily on the couch beside Willow.

Andrew is sitting at the worktable across from Mr. Giles, working through the witch chapter in Malegg's Demonology. He almost has the whole book memorized and Mr. Giles is really impressed. He said so. Right in front of the others. It makes Andrew smile secretly when he thinks about it.

Mr. Giles is reading old Watcher journals. Probably he misses the Slayer and all the excitement. Probably the Slayer is rescuing her sister from demons from hell right this minute in L.A. Xander has been telling him Slayer stories all summer--some of the real stories behind the weird stuff at Sunnydale High--like the one where the new science teacher was really a giant bug that wanted to eat the boys in her class.

Xander said she chose him because he was so big and manly that he'd make a good meal, and that makes sense to Andrew. Tucker really really liked her too and said that she'd invited him over to help her with a special project but that he hadn't been able to make it since he had a doctor's appointment that afternoon; Andrew figures it's just that Tucker wasn't as big or manly as Xander, so the teacher didn't dose him with as many pheromones.

"Okay, so this is the second most boring summer ever," Xander says.

"But it's much more entertaining now that we're listening to you complain," Mr. Giles says.

"Maybe when the Slayer killed the Master the spell of evil over Sunnydale was broken forever," Andrew says.

"I very much doubt it. The Hellmouth is still present, though closed," Mr. Giles says. "And it's getting dark, shouldn't you be running along home? Now?"

"If you're sure there are no demons for us to slay? Werewolves to trap? Witches to de-wart?" Xander makes a kung-fu pose. "Slayerettes in action!"

Andrew looks at Mr. Giles. "Do you have any conjuring powder?"

Mr. Giles gives him a hard look. "Why?"

"We could make a light. So it wouldn't be dark when we go home, at least where we are."

Andrew jumps as Xander claps him on the shoulder. "Don't worry, guy, we'll walk you home. Inner circle," gesturing to Willow, "very tough."

"Okay," Andrew says. Xander grins.

Xander's very tough--he's got all kind of stories. Andrew is sure that if the Slayer hadn't been there, Xander would have figured out how to kill all the vampires and save them. He's tried telling Xander this, but Xander always changes the subject--he's so modest.

"Off you go, then," Mr. Giles says. "I'll see you when school starts."

"Unless of course something exciting happens," Willow says.

"Of course."

Andrew closes his book reluctantly. Mr. Giles has such a great library. "I miss school," he says as he gets up.

"Sacrilege and heresy!" Xander opens the door.

"I think it's rather refreshing, actually," Mr. Giles mutters as they all file out.

Xander walks next to Willow and Andrew trails behind them a few steps. "Where do you live?" Willow asks. "I've never been."

"On Revello four blocks down from Buffy. And, um, you and Xander both used to go to Tucker's birthday parties. I remember you." Andrew fidgets the glove back and forth on his right hand.

"Tucker?" Xander says.

"My brother. He's in your grade."

"Brother?" Willow says.

"He's a big jerk."

"Tucker who fainted when they made us dissect the worms in science class?" Xander says. Andrew blinks. He never heard about that one.

"Ooh! Ice cream! They're still open!" Willow runs over to the Frozen Delights across the street. "Ice cream, guys!"

"Ooh!" Xander runs over beside her and Andrew follows them inside.

Willow looks very carefully at the buckets of ice cream behind the glass window. "They're usually not open when we're around, or there's an emergency or something. Oh look! Strawberry Surprise. I love surprises!"

"No, you hate surprises," Xander says.

"I like ice cream related surprises. Unless the surprise is licorice. Do you think it might be? Maybe I should get vanilla." Her forehead knots up with worry.

"It might be, those licorice-hiding bastards," Xander says, "but I bet if you ask the man, he'll tell you."

"They have coffee ice cream."

"No," Xander says.

"But it's yummy," Willow says.

"And you can't," Xander says. "Nobody likes a Willow-pancake on the ceiling."

Andrew looks over the buckets. He used to like bubble gum ice cream, but that's baby stuff.

Xander nods at the clerk. "Strawberry Surprise for her, pistachio for me, and what do you want, Andrew?"

Andrew jerks his head up. "Uh--pistachio," he says.

"Looks like you're the odd man out, Will."

"Oh," she says, sounding crushed.

The clerk dishes up their ice cream--"Special for the lady," he says, winking at Willow, who looks briefly panicked--and Xander pays.

Andrew tries the pistachio and decides he likes it. Willow looks at her cone from every angle as they start toward Revello Drive. "I still don't know what the surprise is," she says.

"It must be great to be an ice cream man," Xander says. "Ice cream, girls, striped shirt... what more could you want?"

Andrew licks his ice cream and looks in the storefronts. The Bronze is about ten blocks down the other direction and there's a cemetery on the other side of the little business district. Sunnydale isn't really big enough for there to be safe places.

Willow cautiously tastes her ice cream. "The surprise is that there are bananas inside," she says happily.

"Ice cream surprises are good surprises," Xander says.

"Tucker once put dirt in my chocolate chip ice cream and that's why I don't eat chocolate chip anything any more. There were bugs." Andrew makes a face, remembering that.

"Ew," says Willow.

"Ditto," Xander says.

There are a lot of people around; the college opened the dorms this week, so a lot of the students are back. They seem young and happy and healthy and none of them are looking warily into the alleys like Xander and Willow and Andrew are.

Obviously they're from out of town. Funny--so is Buffy.

"Do you think everyone has a destiny?" Andrew asks Xander, "like--maybe--there's a reason people come here to study on the Hellmouth?"

"They don't know it's the Hellmouth," Willow says.

"Well they wouldn't, if their destiny is to live on the Hellmouth unconsciously," Andrew points out.

"No. I don't believe in destiny. I think this is all random, and people do things because they do things," Xander says.

Willow points at Xander with her ice cream cone. "But the Master killed Buffy according to a prophecy. That's like destiny."

"You think Jesse was put here just to die?" Xander snaps.

They're all quiet for a minute. Andrew licks his ice cream and wonders about his destiny: is he supposed to be the Slayer's great sorcerer or her demon-master? Mr. Giles probably has the sorcerer job covered, so he'd better stick to demons.

"Maybe the Slayer has a destiny," Xander says, "but the rest of us are just regular guys and we totally don't. I don't think it's possible for everyone on the planet to be at exactly the right place at the right time for everything to go according to some big cosmic plan."

"Well--if you start something at a certain place at a certain time with a certain set of qualities, you can predict its interactions with other things. That's just physics," Willow says.

"Isn't it physics where the cat is alive and dead at the same time?"

"Well, yeah, but that's different."

"Did they use Hellmouth cats for that? Because vampires, alive, dead, undead, I see a theme."

"That's not really what the experiment was about."

"And what kind of physics experiment makes you kill cats anyway?" Xander asks.

"It's. Um. It's a thought experiment. They didn't actually kill cats." Willow starts to look worried again. "I mean, I don't think they did. Cute little kitties!"

They've reached Revello. Willow and Xander turn towards Buffy's house, so Andrew has to correct them: "I live this way. Near Buena Vista."

"Oh, right!" Xander and Willow switch back.

He knows where Buffy's house is; his best friend in 7th grade lived there before his dad disappeared and his mom moved them back East to be with her family. Brian wasn't ever really the same after his dad. He never wrote from Maryland.

Andrew walks with his right hand in his pocket and the ice cream in his left. "What do you think it's like not to live in Sunnydale?" he asks.

"Less vamps, I guess," Xander says.

"Definitely fewer field trips canceled because of demon activity," Willow says.

"Maybe people who don't live on the Hellmouth don't have a destiny, but people who do live on the Hellmouth all do. That would make sense. Because why else would anyone stay?"

The others don't answer. "That's my house," Andrew says, pointing with his ice cream.

"Okay. We'll see you when school starts, I guess." Xander waves with his cone. He and Willow turn back while Andrew is still walking up the driveway, so Andrew hurries. The sun is just a blue smear in the western sky and this is the time of the fell creatures now.

When he opens the door, Tucker is lying on the couch watching TV. Andrew looks at him for a second; they haven't really been talking all summer, just sort of staring. It's been great.

Tucker jumps up and marches over to him. "What flavor?"

"It's--pistachio." Tucker raps him on the head and takes his ice cream. "Ow!"

"That's a pistachio-flavored bruise," Tucker says, putting him in a headlock so he can't hit back.



This is going to be the best school year ever.

"Agriculture," Mr. Giles says.

"S," Andrew says.

"History."

"C through F."

"Bibliographies."

"Z!"

"Excellent!" Mr. Giles says.

"It's like I'm seeing double," Xander whispers to Willow.

"I heard that," Mr. Giles says, "and while being a librarian may not be the most storied of careers, it's unequaled in its potential for subterfuge."

"That means spying," Willow says.

Andrew grins. He knew Mr. Giles was special.

The library door swings open; Buffy walks in, followed by a younger girl. "Dawn?" Mr. Giles asks.

"Dawnie, what are you doing here? It's a Saturday, and it's the wrong school," Willow says.

"Dawn, Queen of Brats, says that if I don't take her to a special secret meeting with my Slayer friends then she's going to tell mom about me being the Slayer. So here she is. Show her how un-fun and totally boring it is to fight vampires all the time," Buffy says, throwing herself in a chair.

Dawn sits next to Andrew. "I always knew, I just didn't have proof. And you can't shut me out of stuff forever. I'm eleven. I have rights."

"Giles, tell her she doesn't have rights!"

"Ah. Well. Under the American Constitution, all citizens have rights..."

"Ha!" Dawn says.

"...but I'm afraid that none of them address Slaying specifically. Buffy, how--?" Mr. Giles leans over Buffy.

"She hid in the closet while I was talking to Angel, which is so gross!"

"I'm also telling Mom you let boys in your room," Dawn says smugly.

"Not if I duct tape your mouth shut and lock you in the basement." Buffy waves a fist at Dawn. Dawn sticks out her tongue.

"Ah." Mr. Giles straightens up. "Well, we were just discussing... the Library of Congress system. Works of fiction, Andrew?"

"P," Andrew says.

Dawn looks at Andrew. "What's that?"

Andrew sits up straighter. "It's the system of library book organization developed by the Library of Congress. It's very useful if you're going to be a spy."

Dawn's face lights up. "Cool!"

Mr. Giles takes off his glasses and cleans them as Buffy groans "Andrew!"

Andrew gasps. He encouraged the Slayer's sister, when he was supposed to discourage her! "I meant that--it's very, um--boring, to be like--be all British. And librarian... y. Like Mr. Giles," he says, trying to cover his mistake.

"Today we're fixing the card cabinet," Willow says, "making sure everything is in the right order. Tomorrow we get to re-shelve books."

"You guys are such bad liars. I'm telling Mom unless I hear the good stuff now," Dawn says.

Andrew looks to the Slayer in consternation. She rolls her eyes. "Fine. Want to hear about the time I died? Or hey! Andrew, show her your hand. It's fun to be part of this gang."

"Buffy--" says Mr. Giles, sounding kind of like he's warning her.

The Slayer called him part of the gang! Andrew tugs his glove off obediently.

"COOL!" Dawn squeaks when Andrew shows his bitten fingers.

"No! Not cool! Tragic! Painful! That's it." Buffy jumps out of her seat and stands over her sister with her hands on her hips. "You're out of here. Go ahead and tell Mom--she isn't going to believe you, anyway."

"Buffy!"

"No! Gone!" Buffy yanks Dawn up out of her chair and hauls her out of the room.

"She'll believe me about the boys," Dawn growls as the doors swing shut behind them.



Later that night, Andrew is having Spaghetti-Os in front of the TV when the doorbell rings. Andrew turns the TV off and checks the peephole carefully before answering.

It's Dawn--and it's dark out. Andrew unlocks the door as fast as he can. "Come in!" he gasps, "before the creatures of the night find you and incorporate you into their dastardly schemes!"

Dawn makes a face at him. "Does Buffy make everyone mental? I live four blocks away. There aren't any evil creatures between your house and my house."

"Creatures lurk everywhere, unseen and unsuspected," Andrew says.

"So--show me some stuff, and I'll suspect." Dawn crosses her arms just like her sister and glowers up at him.

Andrew opens his mouth--but she has him. That's a logical trap, all right. "You are wily, Dawn Summers," he sighs. "Come up into my study and I will show you the secrets of Sunnydale's dark underbelly of terror."

Dawn follows him upstairs. "This is your bedroom, not your study," she says.

He should have put up that screen painted with books like he was planning. He had some really cool ideas--he could split his room in half with a screen or maybe a backdrop like in a play, and then put up some wood paneling and get a lot of books--it would be really sophisticated, like Mr. Giles's house. He hasn't had time to do much of anything, though.

They both sit on the bed. Andrew slips on his reading glasses, licks his fingertips and opens Malegg's Demonology. "The first lesson, little Dawn--"

"Don't call me little!"

"But you are--" She punches his arm. "Ow! Dawn!"

"I'm fierce! And I'm a hair-puller, so don't call me little," Dawn says.

Everyone's always hitting. "Fine," he grumbles. "There are lots of different kinds of evil. There are witches and sorcerers who use magic and creatures who are magic like demons. The vampire is a kind of demon--"

"That's not how you say vampire," Dawn says.

Andrew scowls at her. "The vampire--"

"You're supposed to put the emphasis on the first syllable, not the second."

Andrew hits her on the arm. Dawn shoves him over sideways and sits on his chest. "This is America! There aren't any laws about--against being more sophisticated," Andrew says.

"Are so."

"Are not."

"Are so."

"Are not a million!" Andrew tries to elbow her but misses. Dawn picks up the book, but she overbalances and they both fall on the floor.

Andrew sighs. "Do you want to hear about evil or not?"

"Do." Dawn props herself up on her elbows as Andrew straightens himself up and examines his book.

"Then listen and learn."



Later, Andrew lets Dawn see his hand again.

"It was really a vampire?"

"Yeah."

"Were you scared?"

"Yeah." Andrew looks at the smooth stumps--it's almost like he was just never supposed to have fingers. "But your sister was there."

"She always is." Dawn wraps her arms around her knees while Andrew puts his gloves back on. "I should probably go home before she freaks out," she says.

It's dark out. And dangerous. And he's older and more experienced in the ways of good and evil. "I can walk you home," he says.

Dawn stands up. She tugs aside the curtains and looks out of his safely barred window. "Vampires and demons and witches, oh my."

She didn't grow up here. She wouldn't know like the natives know. "Yeah," Andrew says.



...and a quarter:

"Efnet demons are the ones from England," Andrew announces, "and Afnet demons are the ones from Scandinavia." He points to the passage and takes off his reading glasses. His eyes hurt.

"You're positive of that?" Mr. Giles hurries out of the office with a stack of parchment in his hand.

"Yeah--I think so. Ugra knows his area--right?"

"Yes. Good work." Mr. Giles rests a hand on his shoulder and reads the passage. "Very good, that's it exactly."

"It's late."

Andrew jumps and hits Mr. Giles in the chest with his head. They both turn and see Angel standing in the stacks. "For you," Angel says.

Angel. Tall, dark, and handsome, like the prince caught in evil's magical spell in the movies. He swoops in, fights for the cause of Light, and entangles the Slayer in the mystery of his eyes.

"We had a spot of research to do. An Afnet demon lord is going to rise next month in Copenhagen," Mr. Giles says.

Angel tilts his chin slightly. "Why is this an issue?"

"It's not rising here."

"Oh. Good to know."

"I find it comforting."

Angel stands silently for a moment as they all watch each other. "You can sleep tomorrow, at least," Angel says.

"Yes--Halloween."

"But isn't--won't that be--" Andrew looks from Angel to Mr. Giles.

"Popular with children and amateurs," Angel says, "but anyone who knows anything stays in on Halloween. I came to let you know I won't be around--but it shouldn't be a problem. Even Spike has enough pride not to attack tomorrow night."

"Of course," Mr. Giles says. "Buffy will have--a party of some sort, I'm sure."

"Do you want to sit down? There's tea and coffee--" Andrew swallows as Angel looks at him. "--but not any, uh, blood, so that's not--hospitable."

"I can drink tea and coffee. I just don't eat. And I'm not staying."



"I could be a robot," Andrew says, "with, with some foil and some cardboard."

"You're no good at building stuff. It always breaks," Tucker says.

Andrew looks at the sidewalk. It's true. "You could help."

"I don't want to help."

Tucker has the Halloween money. They're supposed to get costumes, then Tucker is supposed to stay at home and pass out candy while Andrew goes trick-or-treating. Andrew thinks he might be too old for that--he's fifteen and almost a half--but it doesn't matter, because Tucker has decided they're both going trick-or-treating and he's spending the rest of the money on a girl and if Andrew doesn't agree he doesn't get a costume at all.

Because he really isn't any good at making stuff. He could maybe cast a costume glamour--he's pretty sure he could do that if he could get the stuff. But Mr. Giles says that magic should only be used for terribly important things like saving the world because of, um, something about chaos and entropy.

Tucker yanks his arm and pulls him into Ethan's Costume Shop. It must be new--Andrew has never seen it before. "Wait here. I have an idea."

"I could be Indiana Jones. Then I could wear Dad's jacket and I'd just need a hat."

"Don't be stupid, Andrew! You couldn't be Indiana Jones. I said wait, so hands on the counter!" Tucker points to the makeup counter.

Andrew puts his hands on the counter and Tucker disappears into the store. Their mom used to do this when they were kids, tell them the glass was made of glue and they couldn't unstick their hands. Then it was kind of fun, and they giggled. It's not fun by himself.

An employee strolls behind the counter, head cocked, looking at Andrew. "Hello, my poppet. What are you looking for?"

Andrew swallows. "Nothing! My brother is looking."

"Everyone wants something," the man says. "When the priests of the Chaos lord Angharok cut the middle fingers from their hands, it was to emulate his sacred claws and allow them tap into his power over life and death. The priests of Angharok live forever."

Andrew looks up into his dark eyes and sees power. He can't look away. "My hand was an accident."

"There are no accidents, my poppet, only possibilities." The man touches Andrew's chin, shutting his mouth with a snap of teeth and lifting his face. Andrew breathes in deeply, smelling dragon's blood oil and other ingredients he recognizes but that Mr. Giles won't ever let him touch. He keeps his hands pressed flat on the glass. The man smiles like a snake. 

Then Tucker rings the counter bell. "I want to check out!"

The man looks up with a small frown of irritation. "One moment," he says, and when he lets Andrew's chin drops Andrew exhales.

He feels kind of dizzy.

He stands there, hands on the glass, until Tucker grabs his arm and yanks him out the door.

He rubs his chin as he stumbles home, but it won't stop tingling. He forgets to ask Tucker what his costume is until it's too late.



Tucker is a ventriloquist and Andrew is his dummy. Andrew has a really ugly mask on that he can't see out of properly and he keeps making little kids cry.

He's miserable. Mr. Giles is tidying up the card catalog tonight; he wishes he were helping with that instead. He wishes he were scrubbing the bathroom instead.

But he's carrying a pillowcase and wearing the horrible mask and his suit he just outgrew and his brother is behind him in a suit and a straw hat with his hand on his back propelling him down Revello Drive.

Andrew knocks on the door. Buffy's mom opens it and smiles. "Andrew! Tucker! Look at you--isn't that cute?" She's wearing a retro peasant dress with leaves embroidered on it and she has a fake-vine wreath on her head.

"Hi, Mrs. Summers," they say together. Dawn bounces up in a pretty pink dress and tiara and Andrew smiles behind the mask.

"Thank you for taking Dawn out, boys," Mrs. Summers says. "I have to say I'm a little annoyed with the school requiring Buffy to be an escort."

"I could have taken myself out!" Dawn insists.

"I feel better if you're with someone. Oh, honey, wait a minute," she says, and she fixes a pin in Dawn's hair. "Have fun. Don't eat any unwrapped candy. Let me check it all first. Don't cross the street without looking. Use your flashlight. And, don't talk to strangers except to ask them for candy. Okay?"

"Okay, mom." Dawn pulls away from her mom and takes Andrew by the hand. They run down to the street together.

"Are you a princess?" Andrew asks.

Dawn nods excitedly. "This is one of Buffy's old dresses and her tiara from when she was May Queen. Isn't it pretty? And Mom let me use her makeup! But she took most of it off. Mom says she's a druid, like her friends used to be in the seventies? She had Buffy get her that wreath thing but the dress is hers, can you believe it? My mom kind of used to be cool. Did your parents dress up?"

"My parents are out of town." His dad is in L.A. and his mom is on a business trip.

"Oh. But that's cool, because that means you can go trick-or-treating! Buffy said she was too old! I don't think you can ever be too old." Dawn shakes open her paper treat bag happily.

Tucker catches up. "Okay, we're doing Revello first, then Grant, then First, then Gary. The best candy is on First, so hurry up." He pokes his hand into Andrew's back again.



Somewhere on Gary, Andrew starts to feel funny. Stiff and limp at the same time.

Tucker pokes him. "Hey, Andrew, what are you--"

"--doing?" Andrew says as he falls to the ground. "Hey! What's going on?"

He fell on his arm. He tries to push himself up but he can't move at all. "Andrew?" Dawn asks.

"Andrew!" Andrew says, and Tucker covers his mouth, which isn't moving. "Oh my God. This is too fucking creepy."

Dawn looks from Andrew to Tucker. "You're ventriloquizing him! Quit it!"

Tucker shakes his head and backs away. Dawn kneels beside Andrew and rolls him over onto his back. She touches the side of his face and Andrew feels it like the mask isn't there. "Tucker! Andrew's all woody!"

Tucker runs. "This can't be happening!" Andrew says.

"Yeah it is happening! Tucker!" Dawn shouts after him, but he doesn't come back.

He leaves them alone. "Oh, man," Dawn says.

Andrew wants to tell her to run home, but can't. He can see child-sized creatures running down the street, but the noises they're making aren't childlike at all.

"Oh, boy," Dawn breathes. She looks around, then grabs Andrew's arm and the collar of his jacket and drags him by heaves and jerks across someone's lawn. She sets him down and he hears her unlatch a fence gate, then she drags him again and latches the fence behind them.

She pulls his head into her lap. Then they wait. He wishes he could tell her thank you and that things would be all right. "This isn't real!" he says instead. "I'm waking up! I'm waking up!"

"Shut up, Tucker, you big jerk," Dawn replies.



They wait. They wait almost forever, while things make weird noises outside the fence.

"When I was little?" Dawn whispers, "And we still lived in LA? We had this huge house, because my parents were still together. It was way bigger than Mom's. Buffy and me had really huge rooms, and hers was yellow and mine was pink. And we used to fight a lot? Until, um--"

Andrew hears a rustle in the bushes and Dawn stops talking and hugs him close. She breathes into his ear, fast and scared.

After a long time, there isn't any more noise nearby. Dawn sniffles and tugs Andrew into a different place on her lap. "Anyway, um--this one day, like two years ago, I left my window open all night because it was really nice out. So I went to sleep? And in the middle of the night, I woke up because I heard these noises. And I turned on the lamp, and it was millions and millions of little tiny bats, and I screamed really loud."

Dawn tucks her hair behind her ear and brushes a bug off Andrew's face. "So, Buffy came running in first, and she looked at the bats, and she threw the blankets over my head and stood on my bed hitting them with a broom screaming 'you'll never eat my sister, you stupid vampire bats!' until Mom and Dad woke up. So I wasn't surprised when I found out she's the Slayer, because she was always, you know, like that."

It must be great, having Buffy for a sister. He wishes he had a sister like Buffy instead of stupid lamer Tucker.

She folds up, hugging him again. "I wish I knew where she was," Dawn says softly.

Andrew wants to tell her that she's probably fighting the evil and saving them all.

"But she's probably out fixing stuff," Dawn says. "And she'll come find us when she's done."

Dawn holds him for a long while, as demons and monsters squabble outside.

"Oh no, wait," Dawn says, "Buffy is in that Marie Antoinette costume. What if she starts making vampires, you know, eat tea and cake instead of slaying them?"

Andrew wants to say that there were Slayers in the eighteenth century too, and that vampires can't eat cake.

"Stupid Buffy! I hate her and stupid Angel for being all in love and stupid!" Huge tears roll off her nose onto Andrew's forehead.

He really wishes he could hold her back, enough that he gives it a really hard try, just in case willpower can break the spell.

And his hand moves. His whole body jerks and he accidentally hits her chin with his head. "Ow!" Dawn yelps.

"I'm sorry!" Andrew says.

Dawn touches her chin. "You're cured!"

Andrew wiggles all his fingers and toes. "Buffy broke the spell!" he shouts.

"Oh my god!" Dawn hugs him hard.

They venture back through the gate and find a bunch of kids and a couple of grownups sitting on the curb. One guy is on a cell phone. "Honey--I don't know. I'm on Gary Street. No, I can't leave all these kids. No, look, I don't know."

The other guy is looking at all the blood on his costume. His hands are shaking.

"That kid lives on my street," Dawn says, pointing at one little girl in a witch costume. Her candy bucket is full of little frogs. "Jessica?" Dawn says, taking Andrew's hand and pulling him over to her. "I'm going home, do you want to come with us?"

The little girl nods. She drops her bucket and the frogs hop away, beeping and ribbiting. She takes Dawn's other hand.



"I kind of want to embroider something," Buffy says. "I remember thinking, embroidery? Fun." She's in sweat pants and a t-shirt. They're all drinking hot chocolate: Buffy and Dawn and Willow and Xander and Mr. Giles and Andrew. Mr. Giles is really quiet; he's holding his cup and staring at a picture of Buffy and Dawn on the wall. Buffy's mom is upstairs, talking to someone on the phone.

Andrew is in Buffy's sweatshirt and the pants from his horrible suit. The jacket is ruined from lying on the grass all night, which makes Andrew really glad.

"I kind of want to shoot something," Xander says.

"You shot lots of things, Mr. Shooty," Willow says.

"No, I shot near things. Except for non-possessed-child things like houses. Specifically, like the house across the street." Xander jerks his thumb at the window.

Buffy kneels up and looks out. "Oh. Gee. Look at that. Good thing it's vacant."

Buffy's mom comes back downstairs. "Dawn? That was Mrs. Earl, saying thank you for walking Jessica home."

"Oh. It was no big deal," Dawn says.

"I just wish I knew how I ended up in a tree," Mrs. Summers sighs.

Mr. Giles smiles a little. The others all look at each other and shrug. 



Mr. Giles drives them home: Willow, then Xander, then Andrew. They're all very quiet.

Andrew tries to think of something to say when they're alone, but mostly he's remembering being all stiff and dead. He goes inside the house without a word.

Tucker is hugging his knees on the couch. He has his dirty feet all over the cushions. Their mom is going to kill him.

Tucker takes one look at Andrew, jumps up, puts him in a headlock and gives him a noogie. Andrew stomps on Tucker's foot until Tucker yelps and lets him go; then he punches Tucker in the stomach as hard as he can.

Then they both go to bed.



"Steady. Steady. Look at the target." Mr. Giles holds Andrew's shoulders as Andrew looks down the crossbow at the school's archery target haybale. "Now shoot."

Andrew winces and pulls the trigger. The bolt lands in the ground in front of the target. Mr. Giles finally let him into the training sessions after Halloween, but he's not very good.

"You flinched as you shot. Wind it up and try it again," Mr. Giles says.

"I think--I'm probably more a thinker than an action type," Andrew says.

"Excellent defense. Tell the vampires that when they come to bleed you dry."

Andrew looks at his hand and flushes. Mr. Giles is right--the Slayer won't always be there, and with Angel mysteriously stripped of his soul and turned back to the dark side, they're all in great peril.

"I don't mean to be cruel, but we all must hold our weight. Now try again."

Andrew obediently fits another bolt in the bow.

"We come in peace!" Xander shouts behind him. Andrew tries not to jump--they were expecting the others any minute, after all. "Lower your weapons!" he says, arms held high in the air. Willow giggles beside him and Buffy almost smiles.

Oz looks like he's thinking. Oz always looks like he's thinking. He's deep like that.

Mr. Giles sighs. "Xander, you'll be sparring with Buffy. Willow, Oz, there are crossbows for you. Andrew--arms strong, legs braced, look at the target. Be the crossbow."

"Be the crossbow? Are we in an 80s training montage or a Kung Fu Zen master montage?" Xander asks as he and Buffy square off with staves.

"One has power chords. The other has gongs," Buffy says. Andrew looks at the target, narrows his eyes, pulls the trigger--and hits it! Nowhere near the center, but he hit it!

"Excellent! Keep that up," Mr. Giles says. "Willow, do you need help with the string?"

"I've got it!" Willow winches the string back. Oz, beside her, is already frowning at the target.

"Xander? You're never going to hurt me. So go ahead and try," Buffy says.

"Hey! I could get a few licks in! I have--skills and stuff!" Andrew looks over his shoulder and sees Xander take a few swings--not as clumsy as they used to be--at Buffy. Buffy ducks out of his way easily and takes a few swings at him in return.

Oz fires. "Well done," Mr. Giles says--Oz hit the red ring right outside the black center.

"That's a dusting for sure!" Willow says.

Oz cocks his head and regards the target. "I'm not so sure. It might just be stomach cramps."

"Willow--"

"Oh, right," she says, and she lets Mr. Giles guide her stance. She hits low in the blue circle. "Totally missed."

"Well, no. See, my shot dropped him to his knees, and yours finished him off." Oz gives her a small, secret smile, and Willow grins back.

"HAH! I am Xan-Dar the Mighty, destroyer of worlds!" Xander has Buffy down on the grass and has a foot resting lightly on her hip. "Bring to me your nubile women and high alcohol content mead--ahh!" Buffy yanks his foot off-balance and he tumbles into the grass beside you.

"I worry about you, Xander," Buffy says.

"De nada. All that's broken is my dignity and pride."

"So, nothing important, is what you're saying."

"En garde, Slayer--I'm getting them back."

Mr. Giles eyes Buffy and Xander, then turns back to Andrew, Oz and Willow. "Go ahead, then. I want a dozen bolts from each of you."

Andrew aims his crossbow and fires--still low, almost off the target. "Keep your wrists strong," Mr. Giles says.

"Maybe that's why you're so good," Willow says to Oz, "strong wrists from the guitar!"

"Eeee-YAAH! Eat hot staff, Slayer--oh that's not what I meant and ow!"



Things keep changing. There's another Slayer, Angel turned evil again, and now Oz is a creature of the night. All Andrew can do is document events for posterity: be a diligent recorder of the supernatural side of Sunnydale.

"Do you remember anything during your time as a wolf?" Andrew asks.

"Nope."

"Mm-hm." Andrew writes that down in his notebook. "Did you notice any changes to your person?"

"Got scratched up," Oz says.

"Fascinating." Minor abrasions to skin post-incidence of  transformation, he writes. "Do you find that your taste in food has changed?"

"Yeah. I started eating red meat."

"Really?" Mr. Giles says, looking up from his book.

"Never did before--Mom has this diet thing. But it's tasty."

Change in dietary requirements. "Hmm," Andrew says.

"Very interesting," Mr. Giles says. "Do you know, I don't know if that is normal or not. We have no baseline for the werewolf. Good thinking, Andrew."

"Thank you, Mr. Giles," Andrew says, smiling at him and Oz.



"Did you get the mail?" Tucker asks halfway through the X-Files.

"No..."

"So, get the mail." He doesn't even look at Andrew.

"It's dark!"

"It's right there," Tucker says.

"You get it!"

"I'm older." He reaches over and flicks Andrew's ear, which really hurts.

"You suck," Andrew grumbles, but it's easier to just go get the mail than to keep arguing and right now it's a commercial. He slides off the couch and goes to the door.

The mailbox is three feet from the door, at the front of the porch. It's just--three feet.

He hasn't gone outside alone at night since he was attacked. If he asks Tucker to come with, though, Tucker will just make fun of him and refuse. And it's just--three feet.

Andrew wedges a shoe in the door so it stays open and ventures outside.

There aren't any streetlights on his block and nobody has their porch light on but him. He feels like a great big target--but if he just moves he can get the mail and get back in in one minute so he rushes, almost runs--

A cold hand closes on his wrist as he reaches for the mailbox. Another closes over his mouth before he can yell and Angel pulls him into his embrace. "Hey, kiddo," Angel says.

Andrew kicks wildly but it's like kicking stone--Angel doesn't budge. He yells as hard as he can, but nothing makes it past Angel's hand.

"You little girls and boys--that's all you are. Not a warrior in the lot, not even Buffy, not really. She had the chance to kill me and couldn't do it. And you? You don't even have a chance." Angel kisses his cheek and Andrew digs his nails into Angel's wrist as hard as he can.

"Ugh--you fight like a girl. Stop that," Angel says. He hauls Andrew up by his chin and Andrew can't breathe--

Tears run down his cheeks. He can't stop them. He can't even struggle any more, Angel has him pinned too tight. "Three feet from safety," Angel says. "You never invited me inside. We never really spoke, come to think of it--you were always around Giles, and really, why would I talk to you when there's someone interesting available?"

He wouldn't. There's no reason.

"But now... now you're interesting." Angel presses his nose to the crook of Andrew's neck. "Nothing smells better than terror. Nothing."

And Andrew can feel Angel's face change and can feel his fangs against his skin and he still can't breathe--

"So--marinate for a while, boy. And remember--I can come back for you any. Time. I. Want. You and all of the Slayer's little pals."

Then Angel drops him. By the time Andrew can breathe well enough to pick himself up off the porch steps, Tucker is there in the doorway. "What the hell is going on?"

Andrew shoves past him and runs up to his room with the barred windows and the strong door and he pulls the covers over his head and cups his hands around his neck and shakes.



...and a half:

"Mr. Giles?" Andrew says. "This says a Romal demon can give a human super strength with its blessing."

"They can," Giles says without looking up from his book. He knows what Andrew is reading, and in fact considered it himself.

"So--"

"The human granted these powers dies after three days," Giles says.

"Oh." Giles looks up to see Andrew slumping over his book. The boy rests his head on his arms and closes his eyes.

"I'll drive you home," Giles says.

Andrew shakes his head. "We must find a solution to the great evil that is, is..." He trails off and yawns. "...rising in Sunnydale," he finishes.

Giles pats his shoulder and stands. He stretches his arms over his head, trying to pop the weariness out; failing, for the most part.

"Mr. Giles? Do you think people have a destiny?"

"Yes," Giles says. "Absolutely." He tried to run from his. He failed.

"How do you know what it is?"

"Unless there's a prophecy with your name on it, you don't."

"Oh." Andrew looks up at him with wide eyes. "Is there one for me?"

"No."

"Then how do I know what I should be doing?"

"If it's destined," Giles says, "then you are doing exactly what you should be doing."

The library doors swing open. "Look who I found!" Buffy calls out.

Kendra follows her in. Oh, dear.

"I have information about the dark evil rising in Sunnydale," Kendra says. "Some dreadful thing has been dug out of the ground and the bones say that the world could end."

Giles takes off his glasses. Of course. He should have known.

Nothing good ever comes out of the ground in Sunnydale.



Kendra watches the door. Andrew walks the stacks with a crossbow held uncomfortably in his hand and fear naked on his face. Xander has the other flank and a large sword. Giles has drilled all Buffy's friends in weapon use, but none of them is anywhere near the level he himself is--and he would not pit himself against more than one vampire, not and have a reasonable hope of survival.

But time has run out for all of them. Willow sits on the table with the implements of the re-souling spell about her. Buffy will distract Angel while Willow returns his soul and if all goes well, none of them will die, excepting William the Bloody and his belle dame sans merci.

If all goes ill, the world will be cast into hell. As usual.

Giles reads out the spell: "Quod perditum est, invenietur."

Willow answers: "Not dead nor not of the living. Spirits of the interregnum I call. Let him know the pain of humanity, gods. Reach your wizened hands to me. Give me the sword..."

Giles hears Andrew's yelp before he hears the vampires' steps. He sees the children fight with all their strength--then he sees black as the vampires begin to prevail.



He wakes to Angel and his predator's smile. Drusilla, behind him, dances slowly with Andrew hanging limp in her arms like a child or a doll.

Angel tugs a cord and drops a curtain. "Don't you worry about them," he says.



"See, you get afraid," Angel says against Giles's throat. "You don't show it, which makes you a man, but you feel it, which makes you smart."

Angel's teeth brush against Giles's neck without penetrating. He has been waiting for them to penetrate, finally--terminally--for hours.

Minutes.

Time is very much subjective in this chair.

His broken bones throb and flare. Drusilla walks through the doorway with Andrew in her arms, both of them smeared with blood. Andrew is still--poor child--alive. "I saw the most marvelous things," she says. "Demons, words, all through his mind!"

Angel brushes his fingers across Giles's cheek. "You said Giles knew."

Dru widens her eyes and shakes his head. "Ripper and a little Ripper, dancing back and forth," she says.

Angel turns to Giles. "Ripper--that's you?" Giles stares back and Angel smiles, needing no more confirmation. "See, I always figured--either the kid is your apprentice or you're one dirty old man. But he smells..." He pulls away from Giles and presses his nose to Andrew's neck.

"Get away from him," Giles breathes.

"Mm. Smells like a virgin. So, apprentice," Angel says. His tone turns Giles's stomach.

"He doesn't know anything. Let him be."

"Get with the program, Rupert! The idea isn't to make him talk, and besides--" Angel strokes Drusilla's face. His fingers idle down to Andrew's blue lips. "Drusilla doesn't mean to break her toys, but she always does. Your baby boy is beyond repair--by doctors, anyway."

Angel shifts into his demon face as he smiles widely. Giles shuts his eyes.

"Not going to beg? No, no, don't do that to precious little what's-his-name?"

"Would it change your mind?"

A waxen, inhuman thumb presses his lip. "It might."

"Please," Giles says, "if you ever had compassion, let him die."

"Oh, say that again."

"Please," Giles says.

"One more time."

"Please!" He opens his eyes.

Angel leans in and kisses him. His face shifts halfway through; he pulls back slowly, scoring Giles's lip in two places, letting the blood flow free. His smile shows no compassion at all.

Drusilla cuddles Andrew's pale face to her shoulder. Angel hooks the curtain back so Giles can see her lay Andrew down on the table in the middle of the main room.

"Giles and a little Giles," Angel says, "and we do like blonds, don't we, darling?"

"Like sunshine," Drusilla says.

Blood trickles down the inside of Giles's shirt; his lip burns like fire, his hands and feet throb with every rabbit-quick beat of his heart.

Drusilla slices the skin at the base of her throat and leans over Andrew again.



The throb in his hand and the fire in his chest and the light, sharp agony in his face beat together with his heart. He's alone, blessedly alone: only him and the box on the table.

It's the death he expected.

He hopes that they will be displeased with Andrew.

He hopes that they'll stake him cleanly as a result.

He hopes that the children have devised a plan, and that they will succeed in his absence.

He hopes that Buffy's second Watcher will be better.

He hopes that Buffy will live to require a second Watcher.

Andrew bursts out of the box of earth and Drusilla runs to meet him. "Such a clever little boy! Mummy's little treasure." She clasps him to her bosom and rocks him back and forth.

"I'm dirty," Andrew says, sounding lost. "And I'm hungry."

"Plenty to eat as soon as you tell us about Acathla," Angel says.

"Acathla?" Andrew echoes dully.

Angel twists his arm. "Acathla. How do you awaken him?"

"The sword," Andrew says. Giles's heart sinks.

Angel leans in closer. "What about the sword."

Andrew looks around. "Am I--am I a vampire?"

"Yes." Angel shoots a triumphant look at Giles.

"Oh." Andrew rubs at his eyes and Drusilla holds him closer.

"What's this? Making minions while the moon shines?" Spike asks from the corner. Giles hasn't seen him all night.

"Mummy's treasure," Dru says. "Mummy's little doll."

"Be a good boy. Tell me how to wake Acathla--exactly how--and I'll be very happy." Angel cups Andrew's cheeks in his hands and leans in, fixing the boy's eyes.

"I'm hungry," Andrew says.

Angel looks at Giles; he pulls Andrew out of Drusilla's arms and hauls him over to Giles's chair. "Smell that?"

Andrew breathes in and shifts into demon face as well. The horror is that he still resembles himself in this guise; the demon scarcely makes two lines in his young face. "That's Mr. Giles," Andrew says.

"That's his blood. Aren't you hungry? Don't you want to feed?" Angel restrains Andrew in his arms.

"Fight him, Andrew," Giles says, hardly daring to hope. "Tell him nothing!"

Andrew blinks at him, then looks at Angel. "I can't eat Mr. Giles. I like Mr. Giles. He knows stuff."

"I know more! I can teach you. But you have to tell me about Acathla first--then you feed, then you live and learn forever."

Andrew shakes his head. "But I like Mr. Giles more than you."

Angel grabs his throat. "Look, you little halfwit, you tell me what I want or I rip out your stomach and read the answer in your God damned entrails!"

"Daddy!" Drusilla takes Andrew back from Angel and kisses the top of his head. "My puppy."

"I am very sorry, Angel also known as Angelus, but I cannot be a part of your evil scheme to destroy the world," Andrew says. "I have pledged my, um, word to the Slayer and her band of--" Angel backhands him across the mouth.

Drusilla doesn't object to this treatment of her toy--she is looking into Giles's eyes, smiling at him.

Then the world falls away.

He falls. He lands in his bed, with Jenny smiling at him. "Rupert..."



"Mr. Giles?"

Soft hands wipe the blood from his face. Giles opens his eyes and sees Andrew, Giles's handkerchief in hand, demon face still on. The boy's face is bruised heavily. "You told Drusilla all about Acathla. I think she had you under an evil spell, so it's not your fault," Andrew says.

"I wasn't strong enough," Giles whispers.

"Mr. Giles?" Andrew asks. "Is there a way to turn someone back from being a vampire?"

He shifts in his chair and jostles the bones in his hand; he arches backwards with electric pain. "No," he gasps out, "there's not. Your corpse--your body--is fueled by the demon now, and without the demon, you're simply dead."

"Will you tell Buffy that I kept my vow and didn't betray her to the evil vampires? I would understand if she wants to stake me anyway."

In a very short time, they'll all be dead. "Yes, Andrew."

Andrew smiles and the demon face falls away. "It's okay. Buffy's here. Everything will be okay."

"Here?" He blinks, and tries to listen around the ringing in his ears. "Where?"

"I can hear her. I can hear a lot now that I'm a vampire, and my sense of smell has completely changed. It's very interesting. I'll have to write it down for posterity. Buffy just killed a vampire outside." Andrew suddenly looks over his shoulder.

"Come to Mummy," Drusilla says, beckoning. "I'll call you Sunshine, my puppy Sunshine."

Andrew shakes his head. "No, Miss Drusilla, my name is Andrew. I'm a person and not a puppy."

"Don't be a bad puppy. Come with Mummy and you can have a lovely treat." She wiggles her fingers but Andrew shakes his head stubbornly.

He seems--exactly the same. Can he have such a weak demon that it's left his conscience untouched? Or is it simply so clever that it knows how to stay alive?

He's in too much pain to think. All he can see right now is that Andrew is standing between him and a master vampire. Unfair as it is, he's profoundly grateful for this.

"If you are a bad puppy I shall put a leash on you and your name shall be Wormwood instead," Drusilla says.

"You're very confused. I'm not a good puppy or a bad puppy."

And Spike rolls up behind Drusilla. "Time to chant, pet."

"My puppy should chant." She pouts.

Spike casts a disdainful glare at Andrew. "Puppy can wait in the corner with the Watcher. We are running out of time." He takes her skirt, tugs her along.

Giles passes out.



"Andrew! And Giles! You're alive!"

"Mr. Giles is hurt really bad," Andrew says. "I untied him. Is it safe to flee?"

Giles opens his eyes. "Xander?"

"We have to get you gone," Xander says, leaning over him. "Can you walk?"

"I..." He wiggles his toes and his fingers and finds that his hands are untied, and also that the pain of motion is blinding. "No," he whispers.

"I can carry him. I'm very strong now." Andrew's hands upon him--oh God, it hurts, but it's the only way. Andrew takes him into his arms.

"They turned you," Xander says softly.

"Yes, but--I don't think I'm an evil vampire. It's very confusing." Andrew's skin is harder, scentless and chilled.

Giles can barely hold his head up, but he can open his eyes. "Xander, he didn't..."

"Yeah. I hear you, Giles," Xander says. He looks sadder, older to Giles's watering eyes. He rips the curtain from the doorway and holds it out to Andrew. "It's day. I don't want you setting Giles on fire."

"Thank you, Xander," Andrew says as Giles passes out again.



In the morphine dreams, he thinks he sees Buffy, leaning over him and saying goodbye.



Xander, Willow, Cordelia and Oz are leaning over him like a four-petaled flower. "Giles! You're awake!" Xander says.

"I suppose?"

"You're awake! And you sound like Giles!" Willow burbles.

"May I have some water?"

The children look around. "There's a machine in the lobby. I can get water," Cordelia says.

"Thank you."

Willow looks rather pale. "And I can--ooh," she says as her knees buckle. Oz catches her.

"Maybe we should re-smuggle you into bed. Like reimportation of drugs over the Canadian border," Oz says.

Willow is very pale under her bandage. "Okay."

Oz nods to Xander and carries her back out.

"Where's Andrew?"

"Your place," Xander says. "Hiding from the sun. I didn't tell anyone yet. Giles--"

"He protected me to the best of his abilities. He did not drink from me, though Angel beat him for his disobedience. He didn't tell Angel of Acathla's ritual, and I did."

Xander doesn't flinch. "He's still a vampire craving the blood of the innocent. And--stuff."

"Right now he is the innocent." Giles coughs--his throat is still swollen--and Xander hands him a tissue. "Unless he kills..."

"Until he kills."

"If he attacks anyone, we must kill him. But if he doesn't, then he's simply a boy with a sun allergy."

Xander rubs his forehead. "You're sure?"

"Yes."

And Cordelia returns with the bottle of water, so Xander squeezes his shoulder and nods.

These children... Jenny. He can't bear to lose another to Angel if he doesn't have to.

Which is when he realizes: "Where's Buffy?"

Xander and Cordelia exchange glances. "Her mom wants to know that, too," Xander says.



After night falls, Andrew sneaks in. Giles sees Xander's blue-shadowed face peering through the cracked door as Andrew sits beside him.

"Are you feeling better, Mr. Giles?" Andrew asks.

"I'll heal." Broken fingers, cracked shins, cracked ribs, stitches in his lip and chest

Andrew looks down at his hands. "When my fingers were bitten I was in the hospital for a long time. They had to do a lot of surgery, and in the end, I still didn't have any fingers. I looked for a spell to make me not a vampire any more, but every place I looked said it couldn't be done without me dying."

"No. I'm so sorry, Andrew..." He was the adult, it was his duty to protect the children--and he couldn't. He couldn't. In the end, Buffy had to save them all, again.

She may be--

She may have been sucked into the portal. He closes his eyes for a long moment.

She may be dead.

"Mr. Giles, I'm so hungry," Andrew whispers under his breath. "I ate and ate but I'm still starving."

Still an innocent. Giles takes a deep breath. "There's a butcher on First that sells blood after hours--do you know the one?" Andrew nods. "You can live on the blood of animals--that's no different than eating a steak. If you live on animals and keep your--your vow to the Slayer--then you can be..."

"Be a good guy?"

"Yes," Giles says. Andrew puts his head down on the bed beside him and smiles happily.

Xander still watches through the crack in the door.



...and three quarters:

Andrew can tell that Xander packed the bags of clothes and Mr. Giles packed the boxes of books, because his books are sorted carefully by size and wedged with brown craft paper while his clothes are tossed in black trash bags at random. But that's fine. That's how it should be. He has some really great books, like an edition of "Star Trek: Final Frontier" by Diane Carey in Russian.

He can almost read it without looking at the dictionary now. Studying is a lot easier now that he's a vampire. It's like something just fell away in his head and now he can think so much clearer.

He puts the books away by subject. Mr. Giles got him four bookshelves; they cover a whole wall of his new room. He's living with Mr. Giles now, in the basement of the new house he's renting.

It's really, really great. They get weekly blood deliveries from the butcher, there are light-blocking curtains on all the windows, and he gets to study with Mr. Giles every day. He bets he doesn't even have to go to school any more, since he's dead.

It's kind of easy being a vampire. You don't have to hunt people and kill them, even though he doesn't have a soul or anything. Xander mentioned maybe cursing Andrew with a soul like Angel, but Mr. Giles didn't want to risk untested magic on Andrew when he's still an innocent.

Andrew likes the way Mr. Giles says things. He wishes he were English.

He hears footsteps overhead and creeps up the basement stairs to listen at the door.

"--still missing," Dawn says.

"I know," Mr. Giles says.

"Xander and Willow don't come around any more," Dawn says, "and Andrew is totally gone. His brother said he ran away."

"Buffy will come back."

"What if she doesn't? I miss her!"

"I know. I do too."

Dawn sniffles. Chairs scrape around. "The others are starting to patrol," Mr. Giles says. "Just while Buffy is gone. I can show you how to make stakes and crossbow bolts. You could be a big help."

"Buffy's going to miss my birthday."

"I'm sorry, Dawn. I have an investigator on the case--I only wish I could search for her myself."

"I think Mom's going to forget about my birthday."

It's quiet then. Andrew creeps back downstairs to finish unpacking.

Maybe they could go look for Buffy, just him and Dawn and Mr. Giles. Mr. Giles is still healing, but Andrew could drive if Mr. Giles taught him how and got him a fake license. It would be like a road trip with magic and scones. It would be great, even if they never found her.

Andrew grins and shelves Malegg's Demonology.



Andrew sits cross-legged on his bed and concentrates on his sage.

It's hard. The sun is out and it makes him ache in ways he doesn't really understand. It makes him sleepy, too; maybe he should just go back to bed.

He's slept all day, though, and he really wants to try this out, try out his new vampire powers. He thinks he must have more magical power now that he's a supernatural creature.

"Herb of green, be unseen," he chants. It's the first exercise in Willow's favorite grimoire. "Herb of green, be unseen. Herb of green, be unseen."

It's supposed to work if he has any power at all. He checks the book: it says if simple wishing doesn't work, try a drop of blood on the sage to augment your power.

Andrew shifts into his demon face and nicks a finger on a fang. He shakes his blood over the herb.

"Herb of green, be--" The sage vanishes.

Wow. It's not supposed to work until he says that three times.

He brings his finger to his mouth to suck and notices that it is invisible too. It looks like he only has two fingers on his right hand instead of three--but he can feel the finger, it's still there!

"Herb of green, now be seen!" he says. The sage pops back into visibility. So does his finger.

Weird.

Kind of creepy.

Andrew doesn't really like magic.

"Hey," Oz says. Andrew yelps and jumps about a foot. "Sorry," Oz says.

"It's okay. I just didn't see you," Andrew gasps.

"I thought I smelled vampire." Oz pauses. Andrew looks at him. "And, I smelled vampire," Oz says.

Mr. Giles and Xander are the only ones who know. This is an important step, Andrew thinks, and it's very important that Oz not kill him. "Mr. Giles knows about it. I've been good and I haven't bit anyone," Andrew says.

"That's cool," Oz says.

"I think I could be like Angel without the evil parts," Andrew says. "It's very exciting."

"If you touch Willow I'll tear your head off with my teeth," Oz says, "just so you know."

"Okay." Andrew says.

"Everyone's upstairs. You should hang."

"Okay." 

He follows Oz up, and then up again. Willow and Xander are hanging around in Mr. Giles's bedroom--Mr. Giles is in bed with an ice pack over his eyes.

"Andrew! You're here! And not gone!" Willow says.

"Dead, though," Oz says. "New development."

Willow's mouth goes round. Xander looks at the floor. "Oh," Willow says.

"Impressive non-reaction." Oz is looking at Xander.

Xander looks up. "Knew already." He looks really pale and smells kind of sick, like puke. Mr. Giles smells sick too, like medicine and pain, and Willow smells like blood from the healing wound on her head. It all makes Andrew's nose itch and his head swim.

"Has anyone heard from Buffy?" Willow asks in a tiny voice. "Or where she went?"

"No," Mr. Giles says softly.

"No," Xander says, looking at the wall this time.

"We could try a scrying spell. I read about them," Andrew says. "They're easy."

Mr. Giles shifts the ice pack from his eyes. "Dangerous. You can see things you don't want to."

"I'm ready," Andrew promises.

Mr. Giles moves the ice pack back. "All right."

That was easy. Andrew runs to find a bowl before Mr. Giles changes his mind.

According to the book, scrying is the easiest thing in the world. All you need is a bowl, water, and something to cast in the water to make patterns. His book says blood is the most powerful. Andrew fills an aluminum mixing bowl half full of water and carries it carefully back up the stairs.

He puts the bowl on the nightstand and shifts into his demon face. Willow breathes in sharply and her scent sharpens when he changes; Xander looks away. Andrew brings his left hand to his mouth to tear into a vein.

"Right hand. You're right-handed, it'll lend more power," Mr. Giles says absently.

"Okay." Andrew bites his right hand instead and lets thick drops ooze into the water. He smells kind of like pig now, from the blood.

Mr. Giles sits up abruptly. "Oh, no! No, Andrew, you should never--"

"I see something!" Andrew cries. He thinks he sees Buffy's face.

"--with the shape of your hand, the symbol..." Mr. Giles trails off. "What do you see? Is she alive?"

Willow and Xander crowd in next to him. Oz stands on the chair and looks over their heads. "Cool," Oz says.

"I see a bed! Buffy in a bed! In a room! She's alive!"

Xander smiles. "Yeah. That's Buff all right."

"A room where? Can you see an address? Sometimes there are words, look for words."

Andrew shakes his head. The swirls of blood are fuzzing out. "No words, Mr. Giles."

"Distinguishing features!" Mr. Giles sits up and gasps; he holds his side and rolls back down to the pillow again.

"It's just a room. But she's alive," Xander says.

"It was motelly," Oz says.

Andrew can't see anything any more. He frowns and touches the water to stir it up--then yelps and flings himself backwards, because it's boiling hot. Willow and Xander scream and cover their faces as the bowl boils violently over and blood-scented steam fills the air.

The bowl ticks and smokes on the nightstand. Andrew sucks on his burnt thumb.

"I think we'll try more traditional means next time," Mr. Giles says, "and Andrew--draw blood from the left from now on, all right?"

"Okay, Mr. Giles," Andrew says, even though--it worked.

To the next part.
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